Before the Swan song

For my friends- old and new. Hope you guys like it!

Before the Swan song

i dream of a house on a beach
under the sun kissed palms
on an island out of their reach

you and i will meet
singing songs by the sea
the waves beneath our feet

We will stare into the blue
a toast for our friendship renewed
for a friend so true

We will hear what we have to say
No one to dismay
for this is where we ran away

This heaven of hope
This paradise of words
Our earthly elope from this life so cold

Come my friend
A hand i will lend
to step into our island

Bad decision

I dont have a conscience
cause i tried to make a decision once
they were all over me
like it was some destiny

the path i take
is not the path i make
your path of it
is embedded deep within it

Words fail me
my breath speakes more than me
In solitude i recall
When from your grace i had to fall

In time i realize
everything i was but wise
you had fooled me
and left me in the drowning sea

An idiot i am
a lover for words i am
fill me with your words
throw me down the road

A believer i will not remain
Can you not refrain?
My revenge is forthcomings
its my song that you will sing

Who am i to make such threats
when i am in debt
I need you badly
everything else seems worldly

Another one...

The irk

It begins like everyday
It ends with seething pain
with every word I say
Im insane

I cant seem to remove
what comes to mind
I hurt the ones I love
for all my faults i can find

No, they don't get it
I try to fight it
I hear, to become the perfect soul
All i need is self-control

Then it happens
after the damage i know
way beyond the lens
I can only walk out the door

I always say I'd learn
in their hearts i burn
Searing pain in my gut
wish they'd forget

Maybe they will
Maybe they'd tolerate
A better man i never will
In the end I am isolated

Can i fake it?
I want to make it
Will i break it
for the sake of it

I meant no harm
mouth zipped tight
I shiver in the warmth
Can you see the light?

I take for granted
If only words could feel
what i wanted
only then I would heal

Maybe it will be mainstream :) here's something random:

Shiver

suddenly I feel the morning cold
is it me. am i too old
all the fingers are they pointing at me
An outcast they decree

Wishing you were never here
anxiety, hope or is it fear?
Like all endings will i follow
I am shallow maybe even hollow

Change will eat me
People may defeat me
But the truth is
I am me